Tuesday, October 26, 2010

My heart is breaking

  It's breaking for my Dad and Step-mom (Suzette). Let me backtrack just a tad. My mom and dad were never married. If it wasn't for Suzette and my grandpa (my dad's father) I probably wouldn't have ever met my Dad. It was them who encouraged my Dad to have a relationship with me. I remember finding a letter a few years back from my GPM ( it stands for Grandpa Molina, he's been signing cards and gifts like that for years) and Grandma apologizing for the way my father was acting for not reaching out to my mother and helping her. Since then my Dad has been in my life along with Suzette. She's definitely been a second mother to me. Actually, there are no places when it comes to my Mother and Suzette. They've both equally been mothers me. My mom isn't one for talking about sex or my period and boys. Suzette was who I went to for that. Well, I didn't go to her about sex but you get the point. She's been awesome. I love her to death. I always joked around that if my Dad and her split up that she would most definitely still be in my life.

  Well, last Thursday I had just sat down to do my final. Before I even started I got a call from my Dad. He said he was on his way to Fort Worth and saw the exit for Killeen and thought about me. He had called to catch up. He casually mentioned that Suzette had moved into her new house. I said, "Excuse me?" He got extremely quiet for a few seconds. He said, "Oh, you didn't know? I though I had told you. I'm so sorry sweetie but we split up." My heart dropped to my stomach. Tears started welling up in my eyes and I got choked up. All I could say was I'm sorry. I didn't know what else to say. We talked about how he moved into an apartment and that the kids are still living with Suzette. Our conversation was then over. Just like that I find out my parents are divorcing. He even mentioned he had been moved out since September 14th and I'm just now finding out!! He says they're going to try and work things out but I know they won't. Secretly I had a feeling a while back that it was going to happen.

  It's really just now sinking in. I keep wondering about my brother and sister. I wonder what we'll do for Thanksgiving. I wonder what we'll do for Christmas. I wonder what will happen when I get married. I know I'll still invite her but will it be weird for them? I hope this divorce doesn't turn nasty. I hope my brother and sister aren't hurting too much.

  I know I am.

Sunday, October 24, 2010


I mentioned in my last post that I had gotten a new camera. I'm going to show you a few pictures. Let me know what you think, please. Oh and be completely honest.

I had really been itching to get out and use my camera so Jon and I drove to downtown Austin and I took these.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Guess who moved?!

Meee! Jon and I are finally out of our teeny tiny apartment. We are now proud renters of a two bedroom, one and a half bath house. It's a two story with a huge backyard. I'm so happy to be out of that awful apartment! We haven't completely unpacked yet so when thats done I'll show pictures.

I'm not sure if I ever mentioned this but our wedding was post-poned. We were supposed to have been married this past Saturday. Welllll, the Army had different plans for us. About a month and a half ago, Jon came down on orders to depoy. He was going to be leaving in a matter of weeks. Like 2 to 3 weeks. We didn't want to rush into getting married right before he left so we just called off the whole thing. Guess what? They decided not to send him. So right now we're just kind of enjoying being engaged I guess, lol. We haven't even really mentioned a date since calling it off. I'm thinking next March. Who knows?

We've added an addition to our family. His name is Jake! He's a little 5 month old sheltie. He was our neighbors dog when we were living in our apartment. They lived on the second floor and would leave him out all day and all night. There was nothing blocking the sun and they were just letting him go to the restroom on the balcony. They also had him tied up out there so he couldn't even walk around. You can most definitely tell that he was abused because if we raise our voice or make sudden movements, his ears go back and his whole demeanor changes. We also think he was hit by a belt. Jon was picking up his belt and Jake took off hiding. It's so sad. Jake is also having to warm up to Jon. Jon has to get down on his level and also has to lower his voice when talking to him. We're also thinking our neighbor (a man) was the abuser. Even though he's still skiddish, he's a happy pup now.

He's ferocious!

He's going to eat youuu!

Just kidding :) He's really sweet!


And this one just for fun! I recently got a Nikon D3000 and I am still learning all about it.
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