30 Days of Me- Days 5, 6 & 7

Well it's about time I play catch up on 30 Days of Me. Here it goes!

Day 5: Your favorite quote

I think this quote is pretty self explanatory.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

Marilyn Monroe

Day 6: Whatever tickles your fancy

Hmmm. I'm not sure what to put for this one. Oh, I know! I just figured out a couple weeks ago what my next tattoo is going to be. One of my favorite singers is George Strait and I'm in love with the song, "I Cross My Heart." There is a line that says, "In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine." I'm think I'm going to get it on my shoulder.

Here's the video.

Day 7: A photo that makes you happy

I know it's probably weird to pick a picture of me with a dog. She has a very special place in my heart though. I got Bella when she was a teeny tiny puppy and it was love at first sight. She followed me everywhere I went. She slept with me, played with me and cuddled with me. Before Jon and I got together it was just me and her. She was my little sidekick. You've probably noticed by now that I'm speaking in past tense.

December 29, 2009 it was like any normal day. I got up and took Bella outside to use the restroom. I then fed her and began to get ready for work. As I as getting ready to leave I did my usual routine of petting her and placing her in the crate. While on my lunch break I got the most heart wrenching news. Jon called me and asked if I was sitting down. His voice was shaking and I just new something was wrong. He told me he had came home for lunch and Bella had passed away. I felt like my whole world was coming down. I know, it probably sounds a bit dramatic but no one will ever know the bond that I had with her. He immediately came and picked me up. I wanted to see her one last time. He kept telling me it would just make things harder but I had to. I walked into my apartment and saw her. I lost it. I couldn't breathe. I sobbed like a big baby. My poor baby was gone. She was gone forever. I would never get to play with her again. I would never get to chase her around the apartment again. I would never get to run around the park with her again. I would never get to cuddle with her again.

Jon told me to go wait in the car while he got her ready to go bury her. I somberly walked to the car and poured my eyes out while waiting for him. We drove to Austin to go bury her in my old church's pet grave yard. The hour drive was so depressing. Knowing she was laying in a box in the backseat was eating me alive. We got to the church and Jon burried her. When he was done I cried some more. I couldn't control myself. Tears were pouring out of me. My eyes were swollen from crying so much.

I'll never forget her. It's been 6 months since she passed away and still to this day she'll come into my thoughts and it still saddens me. I still mourn for her. I'll never know why she passed away. It was so sudden and I think thats what I hate the most. I hate not knowing if I could have prevented it or not. I just hope she passed away knowing that I loved her with all of my heart.